Ke-emosi-an

Ahhhhhh, nyampah la aku. Hahahahaha. Sikit2 nk nangis. Hal sikit pun nangis. Pastu konon2 nk luahkan kat someone. Last2 kau tak reti nk cerita, luahkan perasaan kau yg penuh tragis tu. Org tu mesti menyampah dan rasa "eh budak ni. Benda mcm tu pun nak nangis' Hahaha

Nak buat mcm mne. I get attached easily to people. Bila dh attached, aku jaga perasaan dia. I am willing to do anything for the person janji kau tak suruh aku bunuh diri dah la. Yg tu tak sanggup lagi k. Berdosa bunuh diri. haha  Ajak aku keluar? Jarang aku ckp 'NO' . Selalu YES sebab aku tak suka la nk hampakan perasaan org. Unless family aku ajak jenjalan, pastu kawan pun ajak jenjalan jugak, so aku utamakanlah keluarga aku. Mak aku SELALU ckp cenggini "Kau kalau kawan ajak, cepat je kau. Kalau aku yg suruh, kau buat dek je kan" Tp slalu aku buat don't know je sbb aku slalu utamakan keluarga, tak caya tnya kawan2 aku.

Aritu nangis sebab aku xdpt jmpe kawan2 lama. Kerja byk kat opis, pastu bos suruh ikut skali lunch sesama. So nak tak nak kenelah ikut perintah. Sedih uolls sebab xdpt join skali. Ajak jmpe kat tmpt lunch bos bwk tp diorg takmoh. Aku call, diorg kat Aquaria KLCC. Lagilah sedih sbb rasa hmmmmmmmm.... Lagilah otak ni dok pikir bukan2.

Kalau otak dah pikir bukan2, abislah. Pastu diorg dok post gmbr lagi. Mak aiiiiii rasa dia, pedih menusuk sanubari. Kau rasa mcm not important sbb ye la, kau ajak diorg dtg tempat kau lunch tp diorg xmoh pi. Walhal you have told them like 3 hours earlier. Pastu2 ada pulok kwn kau sanggup dtg sini semata-mata nk jumpa kwn kau yg satu lagi tp kau yg dari dulu duk sini, xmoh pulok di dtg. haiiiihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Kawan kau tu try to comfort you dgn ckp "Takpe. Nantikan boleh jmpe" but you know how true is that words. Masing2 skrg dh sibuk dgn hidup baru masing2 so sgt sgtlah susah nk jumpa uolls.

Balik kerja tu, turun bas depan Sunway Pyramid, terus melayan perasaan. Half way through, tetiba kau rasa serba nk nangis. Pastu kau pun nangis sambil berjalan. Bila ada org lalu or berdiri depan rumah, cepat2 kau sapu air mata kau, sorokkan muka. Hahahaha. Sampai umah, terus humban diri kau atas katil dan nangis. Call kwn kau yg lagi satu. Pastu dia angkat, kau pun taktau mcm mne nk cerita sbb you are bad at telling story plus dia pun tak diajak join skali sbb a week earlier, kau pun merajuk dengan dia sbb cancel plan last minit. Hahahahaha.

So kau try tanya2 khabar bagai and tetiba, kau terus sebak dan nangis teresak2. Hahahahahahaha. Dia tnya kenapa. Kau nk cerita tp you were sobbing sob sob susah nk cerita. A few minutes later, kau dh ok and try to tell her the story. Dh cerita kau rasa bengong sbb first, cry for those kind of thing that clearly your own fault sbb dh seminggu plan tp kau yg cancel last minutes, second sbb cara kau cerita kat kwn kau dlm phone tu menunjukkan kau nangis sebab benda bodoh mcm tu. And you felt like mesti kawan kau tu tgh ngutuk dlm hati pasal cerita kau ni. ahahahahahaha

But yup, itulah seorang Mira. Senang Emosi lagi2 time tgh tut...tut....
Air mata pun senang nau keluar. Hati tu senang nau tersentuh.
'Maafkan saya kawan2 sebab senang emosional
dan rasa emosional about nonsense things.

I Love You All of My Dear Best Friend.
Harap Jgn Marah or Terasa With This Post Ok.
Ini Hanyalah Perasaan Saya Jeeeeeeee........
Kbye!

Assalamualaikum and have a nice daaaaay!
xoxo, Mira <3

Should I?

Ahhhh, too much dilemma. Hari2 mesti pi website Lazada and Zalora, going through those beautiful, kinda cheap shoe, makeup tools, and other stuff offer deal. Clicking on each item that caught my attention, pastu I clicked the checkout button. But before your order dihantar to their system, you have to fill in your address and stuff. Pastu at the end of the thingy, there is one column for 'apply voucher' where you type in your voucher code. Dah type out the voucher code, then you could see the amount that you have to pay for the item. And that is when I chicken-out. Terus clicked home button, cancelling my purchase.

Sebab?

Sebab rasa mcm ahhh takut nnti beli tak guna. Takut sebab rasa mcm benda tu useless, and it is just an impulse shopping kinda thing. Just attracted to the deal, but not to the actual uses of the thing. And most importantly, takut nnti mak marah sebab beli bukan2. Hahahaha. And I do that every day. EVERY SINGLE DAY sebab I downloaded the website apps on my phone. So it makes things kinda worst.

What was in that cart you asked? A monopod with free shutter, fullips (lips enhancer thingy). 24pcs makeup brushes, a 16gb sandisk memory cards, and sometimes, I clicked on the Global sewing machine. As in Zalora website, it was a boots, and a pair of wedges shoes. With both cost me RM 100+ on Zalora and RM 100 + (without the sewing machine) RM 250++ (with sewing machine). The price will be lesser if you have a good voucher code. Tapi even without the voucher, for me myself, the combined price is still ok.

Another dilemma I'm currently facing is should I buy a motorcycle? My brother kept advicing me to buy them, sebab katanya senang nk pergi kerja and basically anywhere. Plus, kos sara hidup kalau ada motor lebih rendah sebab motor xyah sgt parking space. Kalaupun nk parking space, kos byr parking waaaaaaay cheaper that kos byran parking kereta. Minyak toksah ckp la. RM 3 cukup untuk maybe 2-3 days whereas kereta RM10 sehari. Tu belum lagi bayar tol bagai.

So basically it is a great thing la. Cuma what makes me hesitate is that I am currently taking the bus to the office. Kos sebulan untuk pas bus it only RM100 for a month. I am sure once I have a motorcycle, my monthly spend will be abit increases. Cause for sure you have to pay the monthly instalment, plus minyak and sometimes the maintainance. But my sister told me this. "Memang la tp at sekurang-kurangnya kau boleh pergi kerja lambat sikit, sampat rumah awal sikit kan? Pastu takyah nk bersesak dalam bas. Selesa." and I agree with her. Cuma entahlah, something just holding me back abit. Mungkin sebab nnti cannot beli barang bukan2 sebab duit abis kat makanan, minyak motor, parking, monthly instalment. Tak boleh dah beli lipstick baru. Hahahahaha

In term of love dilemma, naaaaaaaaaaah. I don't have any sebab currently single and no one wants me. So keserabutan kepala lebih pada serabut pasal duit. hahahahaha.

So what's your dilemma? Come and share yours so that together, we are the dilemma girls. hahahaha.
Kbye and Assalamualaikum!

Love, Mira

Belajar memasak?

I love to cook sebenarnya, cuma tak reti je nk masak. Bukannya tak reti cuma entah le, rasa mcm hasil air tangan sendiri xsedap. The only one that dare to eat what I cook is just myself. Well, that is not entirely true. Anak2 buah ada la few time rasa masakan Makcu. Slalu Tanya "sedap tak Acu masak" and their reply always "Sedap cumaaa..." hahaha

Alangkah indahnya andai aku ni pandai masak like my sisters. Both of my sister are a really good cooker, and so does my mom.  Kitorg kan berniaga so the one that cooked all the dishes is my mom, but previously it was my youngest sister tp sebab dh kawin and duduk jauh, she stop. I prefer my mum's cook sbb well, she's my mum so semua org suka their mom cooking kan? And my eldest sister is the one that prepare the basic stuff a.k.a nasi lemak dan accessorinya. Me? Not good in any of it?

Tapi semenjak dua tiga empat menjak ni, rasa mcm bestnya kalau reti masak sedap. Rasa mcm nk try semua resepi or tutorial that I found on youtube or facebook. Dan juga kerana rasa dah nk menginjak usia 22 tahun, so rasa dh tua dan rasa mcm a really grown up woman. And the instinct of a mother dh terbit dalam diri.

My idea of a mother is someone who cooks well for her family, other than taking care of the wellbeing of the family, just like my mom. My mom is the best chef in the world. Walau mcm manapun rasa makanan yg chef paling hebat di dunia masak, but at the end of the day, the one that has been in your heart is your mum's cook. That is the food that you will looked for when you're at home with you family. So, I want to be like that.

I love baking but I'm not a good baker myself. Been baking cookies a lot of time but I still failed to captured the heart of my anak2 buah. They are a really tough crowd to beat. Hahaha. But once you get to conquer their tastebud, the world is all yours. Hahaha. Looking at their reaction, trying things that I cooked/baked, is the best thing in this world. It gave me some sort of satisfaction.

So, mcm orang ckp "Kau tu makin lama makin tua. Takkan kau tak ingin nk belajar memasak sikit2? Nnti dah kawin nnti xkan nk asyik makan kat luar je, makan nasi bungkus je? " So kita pelan2 kayuh k. We try and error for now. Nanti mana tau boleh jadi chef terkemuka satu hari nanti? Semuanya tak mustahil

Love, Mira